Monday, October 8, 2012

Was it really 30 years ago?

Went to my 30 year high school reunion last weekend.  What a strange and surreal feeling, I recognized lots of people, but it was so odd to feel like I knew them & yet we haven't talked in 30 years.  It is amazing how people really change and yet they don't really change very much at all.  I was a bit of an outsider in school and I actually had some of that same old feeling for a little bit during the reunion - but thank god for Peter because he makes everything so fun - I didn't have a chance to dwell on old feelings.  High school was full of lots of plastic perfect people.  I think that's why I enjoyed the movie 'Mean Girls' so much, but clearly I wasn't one of them.  Our popular crowd had a lot to do with family wealth & we didn't have any.  It is so funny that despite feeling like an outsider, I had a strong resolve to not let that bother me or define me, even back then I knew that what others thought of me didn't really matter and that I would go on to do great things.  I do think that why I get upset at some of the crap at our school (where I work) though - it brings me back to the crap from junior high and high school.  The 30th reunion was interesting in a way - those old roles had long ago died away for most and there was a fun rekindling of friendships and reminiscing.  Some of the folks at the reunion were still stuck in those old roles of worry and working hard to 'fit in'.  The greatest gift that my life has taught me is that life is too short to worry about pleasing others.